Day 5.

Don’t ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
~ Howard Thurman

Day 5 of 40 Days of Yoga.

The Fairy Queen went to big  school with her brother today, for her first kindergarten trial day. It was a bit special :). The end of an era is fast approaching – for 8 years I have been at home with children under 5. I am ready to move on to the next part of my life, no doubt; but there is a part of me that whispers take heed, this will never come again.

The Fairy Queen, all ready to go

There was still a push-me pull-you feel to this  day, between the voice of worry and grind (obligations, tasks, chores, deadlines) and the song of creativity (writing, yoga, joy, freedom).

As Kara-Leah said on Day 4, there is a book to be written on why we feel so guilty about enjoying our lives, expressing ourselves creatively and not having productivity and earning potential as top of the list priorities. This will be an issue I will probably have to spend some time working through in my 40 days of yoga – fine! I look forward to doing battle with you, voice of worry and grind :).

There are moments when one has to choose between living
one’s own life, fully, entirely, completely—or dragging out some
false, shallow, degrading existence that the world in its hypocrisy
demands. You have that moment now. Choose!
~ Oscar Wilde

At 9:30 this morning, though, with the Fairy Queen safely across the road at school, I wasn’t thinking about any of that. I was thinking this: I have 1 1/2 hours to myself – should I study, or do yoga? Hmmm. Lets’s see: Media Law or uninterrupted yoga?

Quick as a flash, I was in my yoga room, on my mat, warming up with Sun Salutations :). I am back to a more active practice, as my cycle has moved on. It was nice, feeling my body stretch and bend, flex and arch. I was careful to stay in each posture long enough to fall through the layers of stretch and resistance. My mind floated here and there; keeping focused and present is a constant monitoring act.

It has been an interesting realisation that it was not, as I originally thought, a lack of discipline that was stopping me from having a regular yoga practice; but a feeling that putting myself first is selfish, and that self-development is somehow unproductive. What stops me more often from getting on the mat is not ‘I can’t be bothered’, but ‘I don’t deserve this, there are other things that I could be doing that are more important/worthy’. This is not a comfortable realisation by any means.

Part of this process will be using my considerable qualities of discipline and commitment to push through those feelings, and prove to myself that productivity and creativity are not mutually incompatible. In fact, each is needed to boost the performance of the other.

Driving home from a meeting tonight, I was thinking about the areas I identified in Day 4 as needing more attention ie. my partner and my study. And I decided that there is only one way to keep that voice of worry and grind quiet, and that is to be more disciplined and effective with my time, so that I can achieve that balance of productivity and creativity.

  1. Write to-do lists at the beginning of each day.
  2. Limit social media to half an hour in the morning and half an hour at night. This is a massive suck-hole of my time.
  3. Think very carefully about how, where and what I am choosing to do with my time and energy. If something doesn’t feel right, drop it. I do not need to go out of my way to experience aggravation and stress!

On this 5th day of practice, yoga is leaking out of the yoga room and into my life. It’s all a bit tumultuous and confusing, with insights galore, ‘a-ha’ moments and a bit of discomfort as well. On the other hand, I don’t feel that any of this is beyond me, and in the midst of the chaos, I can still feel the quiet part of myself that is always peaceful, harmonious and present, calling me back.

The energy around 40 Days of Yoga is really high. People are interested in what I am doing and enormously encouraging and supportive. The flow of life is pulling at me and I have no choice but to go with it. To do anything else would be counter-intuitive – and yes, counter-productive :).

Blessings to you, and thank you for reading.

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  1. Sara,

    I am really loving reading along with your process, because I can totally relate. I would effortless practice yoga for three or more hours a day (including asana, pranayama, meditation & chanting)… but it feels “wrong” to do this. So reading about your experience of investigating this voice inside is helping me to understand my own process. It’s gold, pure gold!

    As people are starting to get really interested in the coming book… I’ve created a list they can join so I can let them know as soon as it comes out. Book Launch Day! Plus, because I’m so excited about how this book can help people practice yoga daily… I’m going to give three copies of it away to people on the List. Just because. So if you’re interested in buying the book when it comes out… click away!

    In the meantime… I’m looking forward to your daily blogs on YOUR Forty Days of Yoga!


  2. You are a wonderful storyteller Sara, thanks for bringing me to you 🙂 I just might be inspired to try this with you….to create space….start with that….then…one day of Yoga….someday soon….and go for forty. I can just picture that cottage, that little space you have now. Enjoy my friend 🙂


  3. I am looking back over these posts so that I can do some of the same exercises recommended by Kara-Leigh on why I am doing this. I will try to actually blog about it myself this week-end…and guess what??? I convinced my 51 year old husband to actually JOIN me! We bought him his very own yoga mat tonight!! Also I want to say how adorable the Fairy Queen is in the above setting with her little yellow shirt and blue hat school uniform! What a cute pic. 🙂


    • How awesome is that? I just love how inspired you are! My partner has talked about doing yoga with me, but I have yet to see him in the yoga room!
      Yes, she sure is cute. Luckily for her 🙂
      I am looking forward to reading your blog!


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